Friday, September 30, 2005
been studyin quite hard with angeline erica and wanqi recently!
my aims
for promos.math - C
bio - E
chem - C
econs - B
haha unrealistic rite. darn. it seems so outta my league. but yea. hehe.
jiayou! can't wait for after promos. sign up for OGL, going out everyday, RELAXING! wahahahhaa.
holidays, here i come!!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:45 PM
7:45 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
yesterday i went to school early in the morn to study with mus and wanqi. haha. thanks wanqi for bringing us food from mac! =D it was fun studyin with the both of them, but the real fun came in the later part of the day. wahaha.
hmm. i guess i did some work. better than none rite. hee. sians ar!
anyways, after studying till about 4, me and wanqi decided to go outta school so we went to tm to get some comics and then headed to orchard for more comic book hunting! actually i thought she wasn't serious about going to orchard at 5! becos usually my friends would be all talk and then back out at the last moment or something. haha. it was too impromtu. haha. anyways, she bought about 3 books of comics and then she brought me to eat some jap food thing called a dango. it's a sweet jap pastry eaten during shrine festivals. yup. i've been watchin animes so i've seen it somewhere appearing in one of the episodes before. it's niceeeeeeeeeee. haha. u guys should go try it. hmm. it can be bought at isetan (shaw towers) or takashimaya basement level. (: and of cos credit goes to wanqi for introducing such a delicacy! haha.
we continued walkin around at far east and soon we got tired. btw, we were lugging our 10cm thick math files which were useful in the earlier part of the day for revision. well, we sat down at long john and i bought somemore food! haha. cannot sit without ordering anything rite. =p and then after which my dad sent us home.
the day didn't end for me cos i went to aunty val's place, and boy was jeryle studyin. hardcore. haha. i felt guilty la. so i went to talk to dan instead. hmm. a short lil intro on dan here. he's from vjc. 4 straight A's for the recent A levels. and he claims that he doesn't work that hard. he said he was v lucky cos he had never expected such a result. haha. his name even got posted up on the board for straight As and he couldn't believe his eyes. blah blah. that's why i dun like smart people. =(
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:47 PM
12:47 PM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
fuck.
im crumbling faster than i had expected myself to. i have to pick myself up!!! i cannot give up on myself. but nothing is pushing me on. my GP.. it's a clear fail. it seems as though the more i practice the worse i get. nooooooo. damn.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:48 PM
8:48 PM
Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that i could never forget
And nothing i could do could protect me from you, that night.
Wrapped around your finger always on my mind
The days are *something* cos you stayed up all night.
That you and I were everything
Everything to me
I just want you to know
That i've been *something* to let u go
Some days i make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that i could believe
That someday u will come back to me
But still i have to say
That i would do it all again
Just want u to know.
fill in da blanks. for i dunno the lyrics. =x
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 1:08 AM
1:08 AM
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
i wish i was better at evaluation like some of my classmates are. it seems as though whatever i write on the EOM is eternally wrong to her. argh. what for even bother to do this properly when everytime i put in effort it comes back to me the same. im putting in effort but i cannot see any improvements. she must feel that i nv tried. when i did. so hard.
furthermore i still have lots of work and revision to do. how to study!? what kinda education system is this!?
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:25 PM
11:25 PM
AHHHHHHHHH! SHIT.
i just wrote a freaking LONG post and i deleted it ALL! cos i pressed some button.
fuck sia.
okay. nvm. let me think. eh. that kinda emotional speech very hard to rewrite ok. eff.
basically i was feeling down la. cos of violet. and pw. and everything. i feel as though i'm not good at anything. having to worry about both my languages, my A level subjects, pw (evaluations) maybe besides squash. but i'm no athlete. i feel very depressed. for example during GP, i enter class. what's in my mind ? it's about promos. whether i would be able to hit the passing mark. i'm still v unstable. as in my marks are. econs. violet has been putting tremendous pressure on everyone of us. we know it. and whenever she says something negative i would feel sian. she say me again. fine la.
i mean some people have talents. though they have shortcomings are certain areas, they are made up with some ability. shan't list down examples to support my stand. u all should know who u are. (: if not, can come and find me. i'll evaluate u for u! definately there's something u're good at. hahaha. can someone come evaluate me. i wanna realise my potential. know what my abilities. cos i was thinking that even if i had gone to poly, i'd just die because i'm weak at evaluation, hands-on training, projects. *oh no. pw nightmares.
i'm at my 4th pw draft. and she still says that i have weak evaluation skills. thanks ar. *says in a sarcastic tone. i've not been improving much since my first EOM but i spent at least 10 f-king hours on the EOM. thinking of stupid EOM ideas, and points to include. but she simply dismissed most of them, reason being that i was merely repeatin the passage or restating or had repetitive points. righttttttttttt. whatever la.
i hate pw like hell. shan't waste anymore time. better start on work. eff jc life. haha. ok la. i'll get through it. the lord our god is my strength! ha.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:19 PM
7:19 PM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
happy birthday to u.
happy birthday to u.
happy birthday to mus~~
happy birthday to u!aren't we the best ? haha. we had a great time sabo-ing the birthday boy. whipped cream, shaving cream and lots of video recording.. hahahah. but hey, there's more to come. up next on the list yingchuan. many december babies in our LTC group. watch out for the archangels. (:
luckily me dan and yijun are safe for the time being. until next year. hah. =D
hees. anyways, my 3rd EOM draft has been rejected again. so i'm rushing another one out by tonight so that mrs ng can mark it and give it back to me by the end of tomorrow. man. i'm kinda stressed out now. no time to think of other stuff. i can feel my brain cells dying. i'm slowly slipping away... z.
okay. my math, integration is in a mess. gotta sort it out soon and start all my revision. ahem. cos i heard that one chapter of bio alone can take 2 hours to revise. omg! that's crazy. gotta promote. haha. wanqi, steph, socks, archangels, s2o5 and everyone else please work hard yea. haha. and of cos me included as well. =D
kae. now i shall begin. the 4th draft of EOM. this is horrid.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:15 PM
11:15 PM
Monday, September 19, 2005
hey people.
bet half the world is asleep now. lol. in fact, half the world is asleep at everytime of the day. lame.
okay. gotta chiong EOM. mus is currenly helping me. alot.
haha. he rawks! it makes me feel like withdrawin the bday sabo plan that we archangels organised for him. opps! =x hope he doesn't read my blog. heh.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:22 AM
12:22 AM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
any mj people play maple ? feel free to drop me a tag~
haha. i'm just curious cos like i know nobody who plays maple from my own mugger jc. perhaps i'm the only one not mugging hard for promos! oh no.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:52 PM
10:52 PM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
tragedy has struck upon me!
okay i'm just exaggerating.
anyways, i'm just wondering as usual. putting my brain to good use. kae. cut the crap. let me post this question to u readers out there. *though no one really responds. nevermind. allow me to blabber on. ok. the problem is that erm. i've been playing maple nowadays. and i've turned against my species! the mages! i was a former mage. but now i'm playing bandit. it's irritatin because 1. u look left, look right everyone's a blardy mage! like 90% of the population = wizards or clerics. 2. when u actually see them, trouble comes along with them. the next moment they start attacking ur mobs with one hit kills. and u scream bloody murder. but they don't give a damn. and in fact nobody else does either. life goes on.. with you, feeling extremely bitter. so you start by saying VERY
politely "can you move please." the person does not reply.!!!!! i mean you took the time off to type whilst getting damaged by the mobs just as to sound pleasing to the kser. tell u what. some people are not worth it. i could have jolly well shouted at his effing face "bastard shove off my territory." hmm. actually more aggressive people won't even do that. it's too time consuming. they would just say "GO AWAY." but i didn't. cos that's not very me rite. hahaha.
okay so myron helped me to irritate the kser. the good thing was he left my spot! haha. but then good things have to come to an end rite. myron had to log out. so i was left alone to fend for myself again. guess what happened next ? if u guess correctly i'll give u a cookie. ahem. that kser came back to harress me. and being the bandit character i am, i wasn't quick enough to kill the mobs. just so u know, the mages have this ability to attack the mobs from afar ? and bandits have to come up close to the mobs in order to attack. now are u able to see the great disadvantage given to us ? so i couldn't do anything about that. no one wanted to help. i logged out of the game. end of story. this isn't the first mage that i've come across like that. mages in the ant tunnel however seem to be more inclined to ksing.
but hey. i know there are good mages in maple. like jsm, jms, jaslynn and myron. oh ya. and my aunt as well. but unfortunately the mage community is still given a bad reputation for their ksing tendencies becos of their superior attacking styles.
i was quite angry just now. the question is.. should i become a ****er and start ksing lower lv mages when i become a higher lv bandit? i know it's quite mean to do that. but those damn mages enjoy doing it. okay. i think i'll start taking down those ksers nicks from now onwards.
i'm sorry for this post. haha. i hate updating about my studies every other day. studying sucks. those who are considering jc lifes. please re-consider your decision. esp slackers who are taking it easy. sometimes hard work isn't gonna make up for everythin.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:14 PM
8:14 PM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
just in case u guys have been wondering why lately i haven't been my chit chatty self (online), i'm here to tell u all that due to some bad mishandling of the laptop, the space bar has been spoilt. no, don't look at me. listen, it wasn't me
this time. not that there were any previous times la.
so unless u guys wanna see me up here typinglikethis, and if u guys dun mind readinglikethis, den feel free to drop a tag stating so.
haha. yea. i'm on the desktop now, so i'm blogging as usual. i cannot understand how the EOM works. frustrated with a capital F. okay i promise i'll get it done by tomorrow. promise kae. in the school library. i've already been on the computer for the past 1 and a half hours... ok make that 2 hours since 10 pm, trying to figure out the mysteries behind the EOM which had weak evaluation. or so to say. mrs ng commented on it and i'm quite disturbed whenever she does give me negative feedback on my performance, be it econs or pw.
speaking of mrs ng, i feel as though her feedbacks are quite useless. i mean weak evaluation ? den pleaseeee give me suggestions on how it should be improved. besides, i still feel that i'm not able to draft out a proper pw piece of work. i lack the skills to ? do i ? what's going on. i wanna know how to overcome it. examples ? how come it's not related ? i've finally come to a conclusion. my EOM is
ABNORMAL. so pw ? thrown out the window.
i'm
not looking forward to the one week study break. though it's like we dun have to attend school, it means that the freaking promos are just a mere one week away!!!!!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:35 PM
11:35 PM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
it took me hours to finish editing this blogskin! haha.
ok so it's done! haha no more bandwidth exceeded anymore.!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:14 PM
12:14 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
somethin struck me today.
while i was preparin for the individual photo shoot in the ava room, some guy told me that i looked like a lil girl. lols. okay. so.. i guess this isn't the first time i've heard somethin like that. but over time, i often wonder why i'm always classified under that catagory. hey. people are lookin more matured everyday and i'm still stayin the same in the way i look ? hahas. sad rite. zz. it's like 10 years down the road i wouldn't want people to regconise me instantly because i look exactly similar to that same old me 10 years ago.
anyways, promos are round the corner. many of us are startin to freak out because, it's just a freakin short month away! i hope everyone would be able to promote and move on to j2. den to the uni. that'll be great. haha. let's buck up people!!! =D
i hope that someday i would be able to look youuu in the eye and say hiii. (: wahahas.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 5:19 PM
5:19 PM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
quite pissed with pw.
i mean mrs ng didn't even mark our EoM.
like i'm supposed to know where i went wrong and how i should amend it.
not to mention how much trouble i went through rushin through the article then writin the EoM.
and bummer. i've gotta be in school so freakin early tmr. lol.
well. i had a great day bondin with my younger bro in front of the television set. hahas.
and yes, we were supposed to be doin work. ahh wells. like brother like sister yea. =p
my parents are currently outta town so we're livin independently without them.
luckily we need not take care of our daily necessities or meals ourselves or we'll probably stave to death.
but hey, that's a good dieting opportunity, unknowingly. =D
oh crap! i just remembered that i gotta hand in an overdue GP assignment by tmr. ):
with 3 points currently deducted from the total score of my assignment.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:37 PM
11:37 PM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
i feel like i've just seen the light.
don't tell me to write happy entries when they don't reflect the life i'm leadin now. okay. fine. maybe if i take into account my lovely cellmates, i'm should be more den blessed. (:
yeaps. i had a great service last night.
relationships are complex and complicated. am i right to say that we aren't capable of handlin them since we're so immature. so why let it bother us. yes, they do bring us temporary happiness but don't forget that they bring a hell lot of sorrow together with emotional scars that may stay for a lifetime. maybe it's just human to get involved in all these. not that i'm critizing the fact that people actually get into relationships, but it just seems saddening to see hurt and lost souls.
sometimes i cannot understand.
i won't get into the mess but i'll definately be there for you my friend.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:41 PM
12:41 PM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
i have lots of trouble with my work!
especially math. lost all interest in intergration.! and the revision tests so difficult!
boo. wish tmr no school den we can have a long break. i mean. long
studyin break. hehe.
yes. sleep = luxury good.
nothin beats havin a good long sleep. i've been sleepin quite often. to make up for the lost sleep hours. feels like i'm in paradise.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:36 PM
10:36 PM
